Suddenly losing feelings for someone Reddit

Hello, sorry if this is long but I don’t know what do to. My BF (34m) and I (30f) have been together for about 7 years.

We moved in together about a year or so ago. Everything has been good, we don’t fight and we got a big enough place that we get a lot of space. We even have our own rooms. We’ve had a good relationship, we’ve always talked any of our issues out like adults and moved at a pace we were both comfortable with. I had been pushing for us to move in together after year 3 though, it took some convincing.

The issue is that I have suddenly woken up and just do not want to be here anymore. We haven’t had any fights, he’s been just as sweet as always, but I just don’t want to be around him. It’s like I see my future and I don’t want it to be with him. I want to go out on my own again.

I can’t even describe it completely. I don’t want to touch him, I don’t want to talk to him. But I’m wondering if it could just be depression? I’ve suffered with it all my life (I take medication) and although other than these feelings I think I feel normal, this just seems really sudden to me.

We don’t have a conventional relationship, we do our own thing half the time. I pushed really hard for us to live together. We share all of our friends and obviously living together our lives are intertwined. I would be throwing so much away by leaving and worry I’d regret it. But I also feel this is unfair to him that I am feeling this way.

Has anyone had this happen? I feel like a caged animal, like there is this anxious feeling that makes me want to bolt. The adrenaline I feel has me literally running everyday. How long do I stay and see if this is just a phase? Should I tell him? I don’t want to hurt him.

Tl;dr sudden loss of feelings for bf of 7 years that I live with, not sure how to proceed

For the past month, I have been stressing out about something that happened in my relationship that I can just not understand. I am a very analytical type of person so the fact that I cant figure out what the hell went wrong makes no sense to me. Essentially for the past 9 months, I have been dating this wonderful girl. She's caring, sweet, smart, kind, loyal, compassionate, basically, all the things you would want in a girlfriend. What happened was one day I was completely in love with her, I mean head over heels type of stuff. Then the next day I was sitting on my computer doing some homework and I thought to myself, "I don't have any sort of feelings for you". I immediately started crying and I was scared, cold, lonely, and worried that my relationship was doomed. This was about a month ago and I have been dealing with this feeling every day. The thing is this is all I think about. "Do I love her do I not? Is everything okay? Blah blah blah!" There are moments of bliss where I'm like "I do like her I'm just being stupid" and then immediately my brain will start attacking me and overanalyzing my feelings until I just get sad and want to sleep all day. I was just diagnosed with mild depression, anhedonia, and anxiety. I'm trying to figure out what is going on. Can the depression be the reason as to why one day randomly like in an instant I felt no "in love feelings" towards her? I understand the infatuation goes away but this is something else. I feel numb, she kisses me and I feel nothing, I'm not sad I'm not happy. I just feel guilty because I can not feel anything. Again all I think about is this is like an obsession. If I truly didn't care for her I wouldn't just think about this. Has anyone experienced anything like this? From one day to the next just fell out of "feelings". Could it be my anxiety? Could I have been depressed beforehand and not have known? I just started taking medication so hopefully, that helps but I feel hopeless. I know I love her I truly do. I care for her deeply and would never want to hurt her. Now, this isn't the type of thing that is like "I don't want to leave her because I'm scared id break her heart". No, I don't want to leave her because I truly do not want to leave her. I'm not trying to make any decision right now as I am depressed. I have spoken to her about this and she is fully supportive and that makes me "love her" even more. I appreciate her so much but my "in love" feelings are not there. I understand the butterflies fade away but the thing is ill find myself happy to be hanging out with her. Then my brain just attacks me and starts overanalyzing everything. "Right now do you love her?, are you feeling a spark?, Is this the end?". I feel nothing towards anything right now. I just won a huge award and didn't feel like I gave a shit. PLEASE SOMEONE HELP!!!!

TL;DR I suddenly lost feelings for my girlfriend for what seems like no reason, we did not argue or have a falling out, in fact, it was probably the best time period in our relationship. I freaked out terribly and now I was just diagnosed with mild depression, anxiety, and anhedonia. All I think about is this, has this ever happened to any of you? Could I have had depression beforehand?