The Way I Used to be characters

Review

"The Way I Used to Be explores the aftermath of sexual assault with a precision and searing honesty that is often terrifying, sometimes eerily beautiful, and always completely true. It is The Hero's Journey through a distorted circus mirror--one girl's quest to turn desperation into courage, to become a survivor instead of a victim. Amber Smith gets it exactly right." -- Amy Reed, author of BEAUTIFUL and CLEANSTARRED REVIEW “This is a poignant book that realistically looks at the lasting effects of trauma on love,relationships, and life….Teens will be reminded of Laurie Halse Anderson’s Speak. VERDICT An important addition for every collection.” ― School Library Journal

“A difficult, painful journey, but teens who have experienced rape and abuse will be grateful for this unvarnished and ultimately hopeful portrait. Eden’s shell-shocked narrative is an excellent narrative conduit for what Smith has to say.” -- Booklist ―

February 1, 2016

"This is far from a feel-good read, but I can’t implore how necessary it is to read a book like this one . . . As unforgettable and stirring as Laurie Halse Anderson’s

Speak, Smith’s provocative debut is best described as a survival story with hope and anger serving as prominent themes so fully explored they simmer off the page." ― The Young Folks

"Readers will root for her as she gathers the courage, at last, to speak up." ―

BN Teen blog

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The Way I Used To Be is an intensely gripping and raw look at secrets, silence, speaking out, and survival in the aftermath of a sexual assault. A must-have for every collection that serves teens." ― SLJ / Teen Librarian Toolbox

"Easily one of the hardest books to read on this list. Brutal, raw and emotional… Eden’s story gets told on her terms, in her voice. An honest look at one teen’s struggle to find her way back to herself, to mold herself into the survivor she is." ―

FANGIRLISH

"THE WAY I USED TO BE promises to be meaningful, significant, and truly unforgettable." ―

FIKTSHUN

"Don't let a book of this magnitude pass you by. Pick it up and read it because Eden's story demands to be read." ―

Once Upon a Twilight

"With an achingly beautiful narrative and carefully crafted plot,

The Way I Used to Be is more than just an excellent book; it’s an important one." ― NOVEL NOVICE

“Bottom Line: powerful, emotional and raw.” ―

BRANDI BREATHES BOOKS

“Edy’s exploration of the meaning of sexuality and intimacy will be thought provoking for teen readers of various experience levels, and this title is likely to find space alongside [Laurie Halse] Anderson’s

Speak." BCCB

“A heart-twisting, but ultimately hopeful, exploration of how pain can lead to strength.”  ―

The Boston Globe

About the Author

Amber Smith is the New York Times bestselling author of the young adult novels The Way I Used to Be and The Last to Let Go. An advocate for increased awareness of gendered violence, as well as LGBTQ equality, she writes in the hope that her books can help to foster change and spark dialogue surrounding these issues. She grew up in Buffalo, New York, and now lives in Charlotte, North Carolina, with her partner and their ever-growing family of rescued dogs and cats. You can find her online at AmberSmithAuthor.com.

Amber Smith. S&S/McElderry, $17.99 (384p) ISBN 978-1-4814-4935-9

According to RAINN, the largest anti-sexual-violence organization in the U.S., 80% of rapes are committed by someone the victim knows, and 68% go unreported. These statistics underpin Smith’s debut, which opens with 14-year-old Eden being raped by her brother’s best friend while her family sleeps down the hall. Kevin tells good-girl, band-geek Eden that no one will believe her, and she’s sure that he is right: Kevin is her brother’s teammate and roommate, and her family revolves around her brother. While Eden changes virtually overnight, no one knows what happened—largely, it seems, because no one wants to. Smith tracks Eden through her four years in high school, spotlighting her shifting relationship with her friend Mara, the caring boyfriend she lies to, and her increasing acting out with booze and sex. It’s painful to watch Eden disintegrate but also true to the double burden she carries—the violation of the rape and the weight of carrying the secret. The long-term view Smith takes of Eden’s story makes it all the more satisfying when she does find her voice. Ages 14–up. Agent: Jessica Regel, Foundry Literary + Media. (Mar.)

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Reviewed on: 12/14/2015

Genre: Children's

Who is the main character in The Way I Used to Be?

Eden “Edy” McCrorey is the protagonist of The Way I Used to Be. Eden is the victim of rape just as she begins her freshman year; the book follows her throughout high school as she grapples with the aftermath of her assault.

Who is Josh in The Way I Used to Be?

Josh is a senior/18 years old and think Edy is 16 years old (she's really 14) and when he finds out her true age he gets mad and breaks up with her and Edy pretends not to care even telling Josh that she never cared about him.

Is there a 2nd book to The Way I Used to Be?

About the Author Amber Smith is the New York Times bestselling author of the young adult novels The Way I Used to Be and The Last to Let Go.

Does Edy end up with Josh?

Angry and hurt, Josh confronts Eden and asks her if she would even care if he were arrested for statutory rape. Affecting a cold and hardened exterior, Eden says that she does not care about him, and they break-up.